Thursday, August 25, 2011

Cancer Journey Mixed Tape - Final Song

Getting chemo, listening to tunes...
While the unknown can be scary, it also contains opportunity...

As I neared the completion of my treatment regimen I began to get extremely anxious about life without bi-weekly visits for chemo. Don’t get me wrong, I was happy to not have to deal with the nausea, bone ache, zapped taste buds, etc. that accompanied recovery, but knowing that the chemo ninjas were not in my blood stream seeking out cancer cells was scary.

In addition to closing out the treatment part of my cancer journey, I had to say goodbye to my old self and let go of some of the aspects of my pre-cancer days that were holding me back from maximizing fulfillment in my life.

The final Song on Roger’s Cancer Journey Mixed Tape is a song about letting go of the past and embracing the infinite possibilities of your future.

Artist: Graham Colton (Link)
Song: There Comes a Time
Album: Pacific Coast Eyes

The first time I heard this song live was at a solo acoustic gig at SPACE in Evanston, IL. I was two thirds of the way through chemo treatment and, lucky for me, the concert was on a non-recovery weekend that also happened to be near my birthday. Erica, my hot wife, hooked us up with a private little table and Graham gave us a glimpse of new songs on his upcoming record.

As a guitar player, I envy Graham’s ability to turn simple chords and melodies into incredibly powerful songs. It also doesn’t hurt that his voice is pretty much money and adds a thick layer of greatness into each tune. Alright, enough man crushing...

Towards the end of my 8 month chemo adventure, the reality that I was no longer going to be constrained by a treatment schedule started to set in and I began to test drive the new me. However, I found it hard (and still do at times) to let go of old, comfortable habits I developed through life. I caught myself wanting to hold on to those old familiar feelings even though I knew they were holding me back from being the best I can be:

Do you feel like your own home is a castle made of sand?
Trying to hold on before it slips right through your hands
You breathe in and breathe out, but the air is stretched so thin
You're thinking it outloud, if you could just get back again
But no one's there...

As a part of the work I did with my whole life coach (Jim Warner) I learned to take a hard look at all aspects of my life, understand how each served me, thank them for taking me this far (even if it was a negative aspect!), decide how to move forward, and commit to it. Going through this exercise was extremely empowering and realigned me with my true self.

Graham’s chorus completely nails how it feels on the backend of this full life analysis:

There comes a time when you realize, the past is over
There comes a time when you decide, that your life has just begun
There comes a time when you will say, that it's undiscovered
There comes a time, there comes a time

I can’t express how excited I am for my future and all I know I can accomplish if I stay true to myself. By doing so it won't matter when my days are done because every day I live until that time comes will be lived on my terms and will add to my life's fulfillment.

"There Comes A Time" is closure rock at its finest. Take a listen and let it help you close out something in your life whose time's come.

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